Keeping my faith ahead.

It's been a year sinCe tsunami..
It's been on my head.. whispering.. of those who perish on that very day.
Was it unfateful? or was it all planned.

By whom you might knOw of, that we're all sinners and ought to be punish..
One day, somehow.

For i believe everything happens for a reason.
I believe we should not regret what we did, is what we did'nt.
So i began to do more things for humanitarian cause.

E.g Volunteering to helpout for the SAVH - Singapore Association of the Visually Handicap.

Upgrading my Lifesaving skills - Currently taking AM (Award of Merit), and then DA (Distinction Award) etc.

For my taekwond, i'm beginning to love the arts of tkd.
It's not about the fighting and competition etc.
The art, the meditates, things that fills your mind just seems to be weightless suCh that you're able to execute your kiCks and combine your body n' your mind together.. it's complex.

Well, well.
Sometimes i just think that i think t(O_o") muCh..
Don't you("?)

It's all in ourself.
The voiCe that we hear..
The one that we pray to..

Trying to keep my faith..
That i believe in myself..

Prayer wOrks? Some says.
But to me, it's just some sort of H.O.P.E when we loses our faith in ourself.
That we Hope that sOmething else can help us instead.. Some believe.

Ironically, i'm on both side.
It really depends how you think as there's many perspective.
I'm a free-thinker n' i'll always keep that in mind.
For i've my faith n' shall not sway to uncertainties.

i lost a friend to G.O.D
He was really a best friend of mine, and to everybody. He was nice.
All it happen on a fateful afternOon, the normal Medical Checkups for all Sec4 graduating students turns bad for this friend of mine had "High-blood pressure" as surface on the Automatic machine as he was at the last of the name list.. Laughing so were we thought why. Think again.

The nurse thought it the machine might had something wrong and so tried using the manual hand-pressure pressure gauge to take his BP (Blood Pressure)
Results was the same.

He went to hospital.
And for wEeks, unheard till news came n' he was diagnosed with cancer at late stages.. Shock were we n' scare was i.
Lost for words the unusual me.

Going through chemotherapy [1], he lOst weight till he was skinny than ever..
Had a haircut for the hair fell eventually as it's the effect of chemotherapy..
Affected by all this, undaunted was he.

He prays, so did his family..
And so did his relative, his friends.. Me.
i pray to G.O.D that i onCe disbelief, and so away he toOk a friend from me.
(Anger was i, when he tOok another friend..
Whom i knew her for awhile and i did nothing wrong (i know myself well..) but she just left me, because i was a disbelief at that pOint of time..)

There's been tOo many up's n dOwn for anyone to take suCh that at one point of time, you loses your faith. But for me, it's been different.
My faith have always been ahead of me, and i'm trying to keep up and keep it up.

There story did not end here, not yet.
That bestie of mine, sOmething happened.
Something happened on that day he left.

My handphone Birthday's Reminder rang out of a sudden in the early morning! i was caught by surprise when i saw that it was his birthday! and i started to message a couple of my friends.. They paniCked but ask around tOo..

News came back that his birthday was a month later, exactly.
Taken back.. News came back - He left.
Was it a sign he left, and i somehow sense it. And i prayed.
He left afterall.. n' i cried.

i cried for days n' for nights..
And months after he left, i cried again.
He's been on my mind, my faith.
i pray to him sOmehow, that i knOw he'll give blessing to me.

The one i pray to, the son of the lord.
The creator of all.

Am i believing? Or did i lost my faith afterall.

I'm keeping my faith ahead.
The end of everything, sparkle a new beginning.
i'm a man, that sheds.

[1]. Chemotherapy is the use of medicines (or drugs) to treat disease. We sometimes call this type of treatment just "chemo." Although surgery and radiation therapy destroy or damage cancer cells in a specific area, chemotherapy works throughout the body. Chemotherapy drugs can destroy cancer cells that have metastasized or spread to parts of the body far from the primary (original) tumor.)
(Reference: http://health.yahoo.com/centers/chemotherapy/1)