Between Life's & Death

*UPDATES*
Had a really good day to begin with, n' a load off my mind to end everything with after much consultation n' recommendation by many friends in which i took alot of time off to ask/read around n' try to finalise my decision of such an important step in which i would not want to step in too quickly in making a decision, or fall upon.

I did a 5-yrs plan months ago upon my final papers/edited upon graduation n' now that I open up the document again, so many things just seems to be happening n' my plans/goals are drawing nearer by the day. But i was told - "You never know what will happen next".. tsk tsk - nothing's foolproof. Just that we make it seems so.

Anyway, tough decision make us wise up?
Did quite some research on several related areas of the different vocation - Pro's VS Con's etc.
1) Related to my CCA's/Course of Study (IBT)
2) Within my context of learning more things with relate to 1)
3) My dad's approval means alot to me in which 1), 2) adds up to 3)

I really love my family.. No preference in order of My Dad, mom, granny, 2nd Sis, first sis n' her cutie pies (X3 - Sharon, Darren, Karen) - We Share/Dare/Care n' for a matter of fact i'm really contented in what i've achieved so far in life because of the valuable advice, trust, time etc invested in me which allows me to go even further of what's expected of me.

No obligation, stressed of any given to me when i'm in need.. Just supports.
N' for a matter of fact, within all my cousins me n' my sisters are consider the more "Sensible" people thanks to the upbringing through our parents n' of course some external influence due to - FRIENDS.

FRIENDS is really something amazing i can't live w/o.
N' for that i've amazing live through with my friend for the passed 20yrs n' many years to come.
Breakdown of my precious friends range from;
1) Kindergarden/Primary/Secondary
2) Polytechnics - Classmates/CCA's/Colleauges
3) Extended network

Seriously, i've never mentioned much about my life within this blog.
Now that i've consolidate into one lump is because i might not have the privilege of going online due to the major decision i'll be making. YES/NO - Straight-forward.

- Confidence Booster!! I AM & I WILL
I'm a "PRocess-Orientated" - PRO person; At times "Results-Driven"...
Everyone thinks i'm Prefect because i'm seemingly a HaPpy-Go-lucky person..
In fact i think i'm really lucky, because i'm happy/contented to have FRIENDS in my Life!
I'm able to socialize in which i'll be able to conquer any hardship.
- In this world there's no strangers, it's just friends you haven't met.

*PREVIOUS*
If there's anybody could help me..

The Central Manpower Base (CMPB) just called to ask whether i wanna be enlisted into the Civil Defence which in two weeks time i'll be enlisted... If not, i'll have to wait till Oct for my enlistment into the S'pore Armed Forces (SAF).. Argh!! First time in my life, i've face a dilemma in which i'm really stuck in this two-way street not knowing where to head from.. =/

Someone please helpPpp!! =/

Statement of truth

- Statement of truth lies beneath
I do not wish to hide your whereabouts
Of the calls often you won't pick
Looking forward to yet another day
there is nothing much for me to say

Let the truth speaks for itself
as you distant away through the pack of lies you said
Used as tools taken as fool
through the cruel time so untrue
Taken for granted a sweet crew
making things seemingly foolproof

P/S: Do not make use of anyone especially when you try to act pathetic n' make ppl feel sympathetic which is so problematic when soft-hearted ppl finds it hard to reject although feeling lethargic of such acts but still respond to it... I'm so tired of all this!! Argh... Is this how kindness repays as things get outta hand when ppl used to making use of thy others, n' others get use n' used to it eventually...

A lil' thought a day, makes my day

Courtesy goes a long way through a lil' gesture
N' as a lil' gestures make some way through politeness
Let things be priceless n' make my day'
It's ok, it's alright, to start from you n' continue

Take some time to smile cuz you never know what you might draw
For the power of a kindness can light up the whole world
So don't empty your promises n' be a fool
live your dreams n' make it true

Duo Delights

- Duo Delights
Of such delights i could ever see
brought to me things I cherish
Two lovely beings believe
giving will bring in more than one could take in

Of such kindess residue within
with heartfelt thanks i sing
As nothing can exchange to repay
the things brought with unselfish thoughts filled in.

This post is for two really lovely couples (at age of 50-60+) - Angela n' Richard; whom i met at my workplace (SAFRA Tampines). Inevitably everytime they come to the pool they will bring along something for us, which i really appreciate the constant unselfish acts of kindness. N' for a matter of fact, i do admire them for maintaining their marriage till this age which makes me believe in everlasting love... (*at least for now)

P/S: with special thanks n' i wish all good health n' prosperous years ahead (^ ^,)

Coming from within the souls.

When you're feeling blue all you have to do
Is to look n' call to, n' i'll be there when you need me to
No obligations though used as tools, use n' reused still useful

Child of all times angels from above,
Raised among the millons competing for the billions
No funds no fun suffer the destiny

Rich & poor upon a thin red line
Equality as some may enjoy the fun, while some enjoy the funds
Hunger at times you go, knowing it's food for the soul.

For all gamblers

A moment of folly a rush for money
Sell your soul on your toes
Stack of money pumping hard

caught in situation so unpleasant
though life's in vain but spare the veins
Suicide may not be the route to heaven's way...

Standing on two feet on the ground
Thoughts of love ones so distant
Hold your pride, lose the prize
Carry on life towards tomorrow shine's

I will be.

I will be your shoulder to cry, someone to rely
In times to come by, i will be the one you confine
of such lullaby hard to chance by.

We met as the melody chant thrice
of approval to be together we can't deny
if we want to, we need to, have to keep our faith kind
that love will continue to bear any hardship which will soon decline

In the many days and years to come, we'll share the blissful moments with our dear ones.
So many things to be done, within our own limitations no matter how hard we try...
Time will continue to run by, unknowningly through our youth we try
Lost in the nick of time we use to enjoy, remember to take everyday to rejoice! (^ ^,)

p/s: Love is all around

Thinking Heart... real heart.

Good opportunities only strikes once, n' many atimes we fail to get hold of that precious moment that chances upon us. Uncallously, we think of too many things that fail to allow our heart to follow n' only to regret later when everything seems to tumble down when we ask ourself:"Why did i think so much=? 想太多了!"

On the other hand, it's subjective to follow our heart w/o harbouring thoughts of thinking carefully.. Because our heart is soft (*Soft-hearted), n' thinking can sometimes be hard (*Because in the ever-changing society you not only need to think, but to think hard in order for you to remain competitive n' stay in the "Game"), but the nature of both balance everything in equality. Bias at times we tend to follow one that best suits our mood based on the concurrent situation faced...

N' thinking back whilst following our heart, there's too many regrets whether worth mentioning, we'll end up in "SquareOne" as our thinking always try to mislead our heart that:"That's no regrets, n' shall move on as life goes on" - Practical thinking in the cruel reality.

Logically we love to think, n' as love comes from the heart by the fact that we think to live, just like our heart which beats in order to live;
in order to think.

Think about it.

p/s: Wishing all my friend good health n' may there be many heartful (*n' not harmful..) thoughts in the many years to come (^ ^,)

Time is money comes by..

Time is money many can't buy
Thy who work, paid for their time
Hourly pass through as seconds tick us by

Day by night, rise n' shine
Tidal rises & fall but nobody's in control
Time plays a part n' you better know

Don't take advantage n' granted of,
For time that is precious it cannot be measured
Quality times that we enjoyed, the wait that's worth the while.

Fruit of labor we soon enjoy,
as time tick destiny closer to us.

The truth of light.

"Ren bu wei ji, tian zhu ti mie"

Sometimes in life, we don't always get what we want or least expect, that we experience something affecting everyone in a good or bad way.. But it's the process that counts n' we learn through one way or another n' as wisdom grows with age, we become more careful with the people around us.

There's a barrier within ea. n' everyone of us when we first get to know strangers who turns into friend overnight, whom we confine over months, n' transform into soulmates transcend over through the lightyears.. but at times when times are bad, overnight friends can turn into enemy, over months, over years.. But thy who forgive will be forgiven.

- i truly believe the good will cont'd to do good's, n' the evil shall never triumph for the darkness can never cover the truth of light, as one glimpse of light can destroy the whole darkness.

Takecare my Dear friends~(^ ^,)

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A post for the rain of thoughts

Been raining in the late afternoon for the past few days, n' one week have swift pass since i started working as Lifeguard at TAMPINES SAFRA last Fri (2ndJune06').. Due to the rain n' not much/no people swimming, therefore thoughts rain randomly of my future in conjunction to the downpour for the past few days.. at times i slip, but most of the times i will be careful - taking a step at a time.

Just like life, living by the days?
Though i always plan ahead, but i realised we must take one step at a time n' be cautious not to slip outta' our mind of the things so important that at times we missed.

- Raindrops -
A drip a drop fills my thoughts
When will the sun shine over the top,
Rain passing by can't seems to stop
A drip a drop as it fills the crops.

A step at a time becareful don't fall!!
The wind is blowing at nautical knots
Getting wet means something's wrong
Run for shelter n' hit for cover
Getting drench may not be the best of all

Ha-chew!! sneeze n' you caught the cold
God bless you for there's medicine to go
Tell the truth there's nothing to lose
A drip a drop as the rain got you.

- Takecare my friend!!
Keep yourself warmth n' let the cold stay at bay~

Tickle tickles.

Benson, your movie star double is Owen Wilson
A free spirit like you needs to be played by someone who knows what it's like to carve out his own niche. That's why Owen Wilson would be great for the part. Whether he's acting in memorable oddball roles like Hansel in Zoolander or co-writing offbeat scripts like Rushmore or The Royal Tenenbaums, Owen knows how to create his own arc to stardom in Hollywood.

Benson, you're a Collie!
No bones about it, you're a loyal, nurturing Collie. A sensitive breed, you're always approachable and very in tune with others' feelings — just like Lassie! Because of your empathetic nature, you tend to be the group psychologist to your circle of friends.

Nothing much..
Day passes with one thing in mind..
- Wednesday Graduation Ceremony
imagine all the familiar faces that will bring back much good'o memories..
Think i better hold myself back before anything flows out of me.. ='/

Nitenitey.

Gemini - Horoscope 020606

Bottomline:
The actions of others are not under your control. Let them make their own choices.

In Details:
It's a wonderful feeling to share in the successes of loved ones and, conversely, it can be quite a trial to watch them go through troubled times. If a friend or partner is having a tough time of it, your urge to cheer them up or solve all their problems is admirable -- but your influence over their life is minimal. Respect their need for space and let them make their own decisions. As much as you'd like to help, there's no way you can. Just make sure you're there when they need you.

Speak my mind..
Sometimes i just can't believe it.. o.O
Takecare my friend, n' i'd be there when you need me.
Promised.

Change is the only Constant.

Well, completed the puzzle (200piece) my friend brought for me.
The next challenge is 1000piece! n' i'll need to save up $100+

But for now, i gonna readup on the [Architecture@07] my friend brought for me at borders.. This book portray the future shapes of China n' Southeast Asia. Interesting! Related to my course of study, so i'm gonna digest every piece of information within this golden book which sparkles my creativity.

Total Pages: 265
Here i begin.

Indeed,
"Change is the only Constant"
Went to my best bud homey yesterday for Mahjong cum chit-chatting after dinner.
Did'nt really concentrate on the game as we were too engross in the topic n' issues arising of daily problems faced by one another.

Me: Hm.. We're not like aunties/uncles bitching here right? lOl. so many complaints..
Bud's: No!! We're bastarding!! *laughters~*

n' it went on n' on.. till 5am++ in the morning. Was kinda Haywired n' crapping nonsensical stuff.. Share cab n' reach home before 7am though i was still awake n' went online for a couple of minutes before i realise i was really going to "Knock-Off" - KO.

I actually wanted to upload the pictures i've taken at the ASHRAE AGM AY0607.
Can say it went well? Or i was just trying to console myself.. haha.
Really informal because after my Advisor left, the whole Lt38 is left with rowdy people! (^ ^,)
Had fun for another day.. taken lOtsa memories before i really really leave school n' who know's when i'll be dropping by TP again.. gonna miSs sch!! argh.. i hate myself.

In the above context, i've really noticed a tremendous changes in some/most of my friends. It's really saddening as i can only stand by the side n' watch, because i'm in no position to interfere in the problems they are facing. Living by the fact that we are surrounded by a world that revolve as we evolve..

Knowing the friends as of few years ago that you first met them, n' as of now is totally different.
The "One" that you once know changes from time to time.
Or perhaps because as time goes by, we get to know the person better (Inside out?) n' truly get to know the "One" that is within oneself.

Like myself, i can hear a calling from a distant shore.
A voice behind my back. It's strange, but i responded.
N' i found myself talking/thinking to myself.. (*Just like when i blog, ideas just flow..)

It's never too late or early,
the door is always open for the willing party.
If you believe you could, you can.