Decision to be made or through fate.

Well, it didn't take long for the CSM (Company Sergeant Major) to spot some of the "talents" n' arrange a short interview with some of us.. At the point of time when our company was "punished" due to people bringing hard objects (keys, pen, pencil, tissue) during the PT (Physical Training) n' we had to do 100+ pumping.. but i was called up to the office with 10+_+ other people w/o knowing the reason..

When the CSM came up to us n' we greeted him spontaneously, the first thing he told us:"You all better behave yourself from this point of time, n' i expect no nonsense from any of you here. There's a reason why i arrange this meeting session to get to you know ea. of you better."

He went on to our highest qualifications, hobbies, weekend activities etc.. but i don't uds why alotsa of the people (platoon mates, Coporal, Sergeant, Sir, and even the CSM) suspect that i'm lying when i told them i'm unattached.. n' they asked me how many gf i have.. o.O

Okok.. do i loOk like i have every reasons to hide it from them? Whether if i look like a flirt or anything near there, it's subjective.. - Looks can be decieving.. but some of my platoon mates still can't believe n' try to dig info outta me every now n' then.. n' try to sing praises of me.. (- ____ -)
*In any case, our CSM was hinting us that we're recommended/chosen to attend the NCO's course to be instructor/officer? well.. i heard we can't escape out of the CSM hands once we attended that "meeting session".. Saying No! is not an option, definately not the solution.. i guess i just have admit the fact that as far as i know, i can't see any better candidate? n' from now on i'll "continue to abide the rules n' play by it"..

Do i still have a choice if i really wanna be a A-A (Ambulance-Attendance) or better known as Medic.. some people says A-A = Ah-guA.. but it's true that got quite a num of A-A.. o.O

Though i still write my "diary" daily.. but due to the breakdown of my comp, i do not have the time n' convenience of updating the parts n' parcel of my life.. Currently, my computer is with my buddy n' i passed him $200 hopefully to get my PC fixed.. though i went to Sim Lim to check out the market price for the diagnose fees n' etc, but somehow i feel it's not worth it n' i rather let my friend hand's-on with my PC n' i pay him.. lOl. *Pray hard..*

My pay came for providing my Lifeguard service at Safra Tamp, n' also my SCDF as part of my national service, but now due to the unforeseen circumstances of my PC, i guess i'll have to pay a hefty sum to fix the problem.. I have no choice.. one week nv use PC then suddenly crash.. all my info.. data.. pictures!! ='/ but the strange thing is, i've learned to get over with it.

Choice or fate.. Do i have a say?

Life is good, lasting good.

Well, my comp is down for the moment due to some DLL stuff.. cnnt start up n' i think i really need to buy a new comp or get the DLL stuff fixed.. o.O helPpp!! =/

Anyway, i tried reformating 5-6times (lost count) but i managed to vaccum n' mopped my floor which is something i do everyday at the camp.. lOl. except that we only got broom to sweep the floor.. no luxury of vaccum.. but i brought a magic-clean hopefully to clear away the dust~!!

Iron n' starch my clothes, n' i think i'll recieve compliments from my Superior again.. haha. it feels good to be the Platoon I/C, n' i'm in the drill competition team, n' also will be training for a swimming competition against other school.. Life is good!! (^ ^,)

*The BRTC (Basic Rescue Training Camp) was testing the sound system at some point of time n' my whole body just itch to dance n' move to the beats.. argh!! i wanna Club!! XD
- Edited Composed
"Baby if you give it to me
i give it to you i know what you want
Baby if you give it to me
i'll come right to you
there's no way to run"

The above expressed my thoughts of the upcoming challenges that i might be facing but i'll be haPpy to undertake what it takes to be there to experience the process which i think is most important. - It's the process that counts, as whatever will be, will be.

p/s: Takecare my friends! Take everyday to celebrate life n' treasure your love ones! =P

SCDF First Book-in 16thJul06 (Sun)

Geez~ First book-in today but must reach the training camp by 8.30pm (Normally is 9pm) as we need to learn the procedures for booking in.. In any case, i'm not sure why i'm getting all excited about going back.. kinDa miss the daily routine we're assigned to do (Area-cleaning, water parade, foot-drills etc.) n' the fact that i'm bringing some of the habits back to my house..

Standardising things..
Or at least must be neat.

*In-Camp Training (ICT)
i'm going through the BRT (Basic Rescue Training) which will end in another 6wks n' i know things are gonna get real fun!

One thing most of us (recruits) will remember in mind is..
Instructor: There's only two ways. (*Hold his index fingers)
1) One you either do what you're told to
2) Or prepare to sign extra

Do you Understand?!

Recruits: Yes Corporal!!
Instructor: DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!
Recruits: YES CORPORAL!! o.O

Ohh ya! i just recalled i fell onto my knees during the "Changing Parade" (Physical Training Kit - Smart Four n' vice versa..) n' i got white patches n' holes for the first week!! argh!! sadded.. it's actually illegal to perform "Changing Parade" though it's kinda fun.. lOl. (*Ohh!! did i mention dangerous?? it was raining cats n' dogs which contribute to the reason i fell)

But luckily i didn't fall hard/flat unto my face.. In fact my boots slide about 4-5 normal steps away, n' i had to bend my knees n' then use my hand to break the fall.. but luckily my pants played a crucial part of protecting my knees.. i don't wanna any ugly scar =/

That's all for today folks.
Next fri book-out (Home Sweet home) then most probably have to prepare for Joy b'day present?? HelPppP!! scare no time!! =/ Hmm.. Chine Saw (SAF - at tekong currently confined for first two weeks) also will be booking out, think i'll meet him up to go Beach Rd to purchase some stuff? Till then, takecare!! heard that tekong the food average, alot of ppl falling sick n' some ppl are seeing "those things"..

7thMonth will come, but if you never do anything wrong then dOn't be afraid.

Thoughts of the week.

Enlisted 11Jul06' n' bookout on 14thJul06' (Fri).
Everyday was smooth-sailing n' i've made quite a handful of friends. The food was fantastic, though i can't imagine i've gain 2kg.. but i'm sure the training will balance off everything n' i'm still within the "Acceptable Healthy Weight Range" so it's OK!! =P

Everyday before/after lights-off, i've write a lil' note of what happen just to make life easier.. So i'll remember all the memorable times i've been through n' keep in mind that i'll be happy for the rest of the remaining days which i'll really treasure. It's not as bad as many other people commented of what's so bad about the SCDF, n' i was really taken back by the comments at first n' kind of reconsidering whether i wanna go into SCDF due to the whatsoever reasons/feedbacks from the individual.

- It's true you have to be inside to really know it inside out.
Thankfully everything's in life is just so prefect, but i'll be strong to resist any hardship that's about to come. Wanna learn more things in order for me to provide excellence services as part of the SCDF during my NSF, thus i'll truly enjoy what i'm doing as part of my job/work._.

Here it goes,
11thJul06' (Tues); Smooth-sailing; Good food; nice people; Disciplined life.
Unbounded by the oath i take
Standing by the vows i've made
Nothing can explain what i'll be in good state
One way or another, somehow or rather
Stages i'm going through will stand me in good stead

Lies the future so near yet so far
There's no shortcut's or exits
Take the lead n' fill the seats
Just a fulfilling road for me to engage

p/s: Wanna Thank my parents for driving me here, n' family for accompanying me through my 20yrs till now that i'm independent, what a real man is, is to support the family n' not be a burden. (*From one of the Captain/Major). The instructors (different rank) are all really nice people, as long as we do the right things, you know you won't get any trouble.. Geez~ i'm loving it.

12thJul06' (Wed) - Area cleaning; Learning basic command; normal drills; Talks (wait for speaker until v.bored)..
Slack until tired n' feel lethargic
Life seems to be filled with nothing much to await
Though breakfast was great, but lunch must wait
Talks of the day doesn't feel my brain
Only my stomach complaining

Dinner was average n' slack until 8!
Take the mug n' fill the cup..
Water parade is "Drinkup! all the way~"
Slack again n' wait for 10!
Lights-off close your eyes & sleep till daybreak..

13thJul06 (Thurs); Great Day! Cuz tmr book-out day~
A good day to start off with "Drinking up again!"
Everyone much awaits for tomorrow bookout day
Area cleaning the staircase with dust swept away
Bunk check was bad with towel fabrics dropping away

Tested on pull-ups that "fit-squad" doesn't seems to flare
More talks installed today though some fell sideways pretending to be awake
Enjoying through the slide as "Thai-massage" was taught to make us more awake!
Basics of footdrills we really need to portray
A platoon of recruits really have to train
Shouts were inevitably though voice is losing away
Evening 1litre for water parade, caused someone to vomit the bread
Cleaning up was the answer, before we fall-out into the bed
Tomorrow is not just another day but..
Home sweet Home! A moment to celebrate!! (^ ^,)

14Jul06' - (Fri); BOOKOUT DAY!! =P
It just feel so good knowing that i'll be going home..
Though we had a changing parade that caused me to lock my keys inside the lockers.. luckily it's SCDF n' they took the "Big Cutter?" to pry my lock.. sob sob.. ='/

Anyway, packed most of the required items to go home n' this time round i'll be smarter as not to pack all the junkies that i never once need.. Well, recruits are recruits..

For those wanna see me in the botak state..
Here goes my 11B (In exchange for my Pink i/c)
Please don't laugh k.. thanks.. =/

As i..

- As i..
As i wish upon a star, to face the world with a smile
for my wounds to heal and my strength to be renew
Take my hands & walk with me, help me grow, help me see
that the world is a beautiful place to be..

Give me hope, teach me sing, light the way up for my dreams
Help me stand tall, don't let me fall
Be my friend, my pillar of strength
I shall have no fear knowing you are near
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- Today (10thJul06')
I packed my room n' managed to pack 5big packs of unwanted stuff!? Couldn't believe it at first but i remember the advice i stood by - 10yrs n' it'll still be the same.. Found lOtsa unwanted stuff, n' some memorable Sec's Yearbook that brought me back through the good old days.. Vivid memories.. facets of fading memories.. So with some feelings i threw away the things i kept for few years? Don't wanna wait till 10yrs later when i'm thrown back to square one by the same advice i shoulda have heed in the first place..

Recieved some call/message/email from my friends which is really heart-warming.. I'll takecare of myself during my ICT (In-Camp Training) n' rest assured i'll be the best that's yet to be. Must motivate myself so pardon me for my confidence. (^ ^,)

Gemini Horoscope - 10thJul06' (Extracted from Friendster)
The Bottom Line
Everyone is looking to you for the answers now.
Your actions will speak volumes.

In Detail
Everyone looks to you for the answers today, but that doesn't rattle you at all. You're one cool customer, and nothing (and more importantly no one) is going to get the better of you! Maybe it's healthy confidence or a bit of self-delusion ... whatever. The reason for your grace under pressure is irrelevant. What matters is that you'll be there for the people who need you, and your actions will say everything that needs to be said -- and quite eloquently to boot.
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Did a Analysis test send by Lane?
Quite cool but was random.. So is this me?

WHO YOU REALLY ARE?
You are a person who is willing to share.
Any friends that came along, you will accept and trust them completely.
What you want in your life is half fullfilled.
You are weak in your life and tends to be fragile.
You have low sex drive.
You have a few good friends in your life.
Your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you.
Even when your partner is around you, you will flirt around with others.
You've got a low ego.
A humble personality is in you.
You get average bond with your friends.
Your partner is only average in your heart.
Your partner is a very homely and humble person.
You will go to your friends whenever you are met with problems.

I know the answers.

Enlisting 11thJuly06' into SCDF - The Lifesaving Force.

Tomorrow (Dated: 10thJul06', Monday) will be my last day as a Civilian, n' i'll have to countdown two years to my ORD (Operation Ready Date).. Though i can't wait to move on in life into the next phrase - Real Working World/Cont'd my studies either/or but i must keep in mind to take one step at a time.

I've heard alot of different views n' comments, Pro's vs Con's of the SCDF.. But nothing *yet has able to shaken my faith n' determination of doing great to humanitarian of the things that i'm going to learn n' master.

Me: I've to make a choice of going either to the SCDF or SAF.. How?
Mom: Which one better? What's SCDF?
Me: The S'pore Civil Defence Force; simply put is to save/put out fire?
Mom: huh?? Fire dangerous!! Better don't go..
Me: Then you rather me take guns go shoot ppl?
Mom: Okok.. Then you better think twice n' wise before making the decision.
Me: Made. I rather go save someone's else life =P
Mom: ...

- Glitters of the night
I hear a calling as the whispers fall into the silent night
As i walk along the lights shine upon
Of a star so great glitter right into my eyes unborn

If you never try, you'll never know
Like an unpolish star shining across the globe
You can be, if you want to be

p/s: The future lies in your own hands

The greatest thing you ever learn, is to teach.

It's not just another day that flash passed because the memories of what happen for the passed few months, weeks, days, hours ago seems fresh to me.. Or perhaps i have a vivid memories n' having reminiscence which flash at the back of my head... - Flashback.

On wednesday (Dated: 5thJul06')
i went to Changi Airport to fetch Chine Saw n' Josephine (My Poly's friend); they just came back from Thailand n' gladly - Back in one piece safely.. But before coming out of the checkpoint right at the spotcheck, Ah'Saw was found in possession of a 25cm knife (which was resemble a swissknife, but upon trigger the knife can flip-out).. The whole lot of us (Jos's Dad + 2sister [Jessica, Geraldine] + Me, Hanwei) - who went to recieve them really *sweat* for them as we waited about 2hrs for the officer to write a statement..

*That police officer recieved a call*
PO: Hello, Yes?
Phonecall: Got an Indian from another flight is carrying a sword!!
PO: HUH?? WT?? Be right there.

*Engaged phone* Toottt...*

PO - Ah'Saw: Ok, your "sword" small one.. We'll need to write a statement for this because you never declared but even if you did, will not get you through.. o.O
Ah'Saw: ...

lOl!! What a drama.. Waited from 9.30pm++ till near 1am before the issue is finally resolved..
We (Me, Saw, HW) took cab to 201 to chat while Jos's family head home.
Talked about our future, the past etc.

It's like infinate topic under the universal.
As there's bound to be "others" in another solar system..
Now who's to comment that "It's such a small world.."

Thurday (Dated: 6thJul06')
Went to TM NTUC to purchase the marinate, sauce n' some spices/herbs to prepare for Sat BBQ at Changi.. Went over to Nixon homey (Sec'School friend) n' prepared the marination n' guess what we added into one of the marination?
- Johnnie Walker Black Label Old Scotch Whisky.. lOl.

Can't wait till sat!! Celebrate Feng B'day though it's kinDa complicated of what's happening because it's like most of them are working, in camp etc.. i think i'm the only "free-lancer" around.. Haha. but nonetheless i'm having lotsa fun! Meeting Hen, nick tmr to settle the rest of the fresh food; Sat then purchase the dryfood/stuff then head over to Changi.. wOhoo!! =P

Fri (Dated: 7thJul06')
1) It's my 2ndSister B'day!!
2) Ah'Saw gg Tekong!! (*Gotta meet him to send him off~)
3) Pre-preparation for Feng B'day BBQ!!
4) Prepare my enlistment stuff!!

Geez~ KinDa feeling abit dizzy..
Goodnight everyone!! Takecare~

Tickle tickles again..

Benson, you're an Angel!

Just like the haloed and winged guardians of good, you truly have a heart of gold, sweet Angel. Whenever there's a chance to pitch in, save the day or just make life easier for the people around you, you're the one for the job.You don't just jump in without planning — you use your angelic head to figure out how to do things right the first time, like only the most dependable goddesses can.

Whether brainstorming a new solution to a problem, planning a surprise party for your parents, or lending your friends a wing to cry on, you've got the right instincts, so follow them whenever you can. As natural as it is for you to take care of the people around you, don't forget to treat yourself right, too.

The best friendships, and loves, of a lifetime tend to blossom when you become your own guardian angel. So don't listen to those who say nice girls finish last. People have always seen you as a goddess of thoughtfulness and good intentions, and it hasn't slowed you down a bit. All in all, Angel, you've got it made with your glowing attitude and ability to see from on high. So get out there and change the world!

- Alas!
i can't believe i picked up the call from CMPB (Central Manpower Base) n' said
CMPB: Hi Mr Tan, i'm Mr Tan calling from CMPB
Me: Uh-huh~ o.O
CMPB: So do you wish to be enlisted into the Civil'Def in two weeks time?
Me: Hmm.. i was about to give CMPB a call.. er.. Anything?
Me:If not i have to wait until Oct for my enlistment to the SAF right?
CMPB: Yes, so when can you come down to CMPB to collect your enlistment letter?
Me: HUH? i thought will be send via mail?
CMPB: it'll be too late by then.
Me: Ok, anytime actually
CMPB: Good, please come down by today to collect your enlistment letter, thank you n' have a nice day..

*Engaged sound* Toottt...*

I know after i put down the phone, my whole life will change dramatically..
Thoughts fluttered through of how i'm gonna inform my work - Lifeguard, family, friends etc. as i confidently collected my enlistment letter at CMPB around 4pm+

What worst could happen i thought to myself..
*tear the side of the letter to open document*
1. You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93),
to report for enlistment
on: 11 JUL 2006 (TUE) AT 08:30am
to: SINGAPORE CIVIL DEFENCE FORCE (SCDF)

N' it's at Jalan Bahar?? Must take train to Boon Lay Interchange, change Tibs Bus service no. 172 into the camp.. o.O Haha.. But luckily i'm very independent so this kinda of "shocks" i still can sustain.. No worries!! i've packed my stuff n' got ready for my Service.

Well, of the why n' what not's let's just leave everything to fate.
Meeting Andrew at 6pm to collect my camp shirt from him.. long story.. (05Jul06) Perhaps i'll jog to school n' swim? Hmm..

Update again soon~
Takecare my friends.